Oct. 26 Sorry no pictures this week

I know on Monday and Tuesday I didnt put any pictures up but they areon my phone they just cant be sent yet. But today was dress for sucess and Tymmy looked so cute =). I was going to dress up but I couldnt fing anything to wear and if I did I would have been super crazy lateso I just threw on a dress and called it a day but I did feel bad because me and Tymmy were going to be spiffy today together. I have to go to practice today but I honestly dont want to. evrybody is always so grumpy now and by me being me I really do hate it because it brings my spirit down. and they always get mad that Im happy like why yall so bitter GOSH!!!!!

Oct. 25 Competiton in 5 days

We keep getting stressed out because competition is in 5 days so  it is tooo many emotions in practice like really yall need to get it together. Everyone wants to place so everyone has their own input on things but I honestly dont care about what they think. Coach is starting to get annoyed with them and I really feel bad for her because she has more faith in us then most of us have in ourselves and that is really sad. I love them but if somebody else trys to blame me for something they are doing wrong I think i might have to tell them about their selves.

Oct. 24 the start of a stressful week

I know for a fact that this week is going to be too stressful for me but I will maintain a smile. I am begining to feel like a lot of things that I want for myself really are not ment for me because I am always so iffy about them. But today something told me to start looking at Pratt Institute for college but honestly I cant even focus enough on the schools I already have on my list so I guess no early admissions for me =(. I wish October was not so busy for me with jugling work, cheerleading and all this college stuff I really feel like im not going to be done by Monday. GOD HELP ME

Sun. Oct. 23 Good Night Good Mornings

So my night last night gave me a great start to my day. Had a normally strange but random dream as usual so I wastalking to Drea about it this morning. I teted T'Nea and Tymmy this morning so they made my morning exquisite. I had a good day at church Pastor told me that she was proud of me and everything that I had been doing even though I do have a lot to do every day I have my priorities straight. I had a good time talking to Quan and Geezy they made me laugh a lot. Then I spent some time with my mommy but now I have to plan out my week and finish this project.

Sat. Oct. 22 Fast days

Today went by so fast I had to make work fun though. Everybody seemed depressed today but I hate when people are sad so I had to make them smile. I think today is me and KayKay's last day working together but I made the best of it, now work is about to be dry. Dylie Boy and Lucky came by to see me at work but coincedentally Toni was with them so it was so akward when we went outside to talk. I miss his big head self but good things always come to an end.I found out that I might be modeling in a fashion show in December depending on how my schedual works out but only time will tell with that so Im not going to get my hopes up on that.  Good thing Im going out tonight with Tymmy because I needed that release. Bri went with us and we saw Paranormal Activity but I didn't think it was scary at all it was actually funny to me. Tymmy made my day end with smiles so that means good nights.

Fri. Oct. 20 Prepreation

Today I had to get up early to get readty for practice. I woke up at 9 and practice starts at 10 I'm not sure how I made it there only 13min. later when I had to walk and my knee is still healing. I didn't leave the house until 9:43 I must be really dedicated because I thought i wasn't goning to get there to at the most 10:20 or 10:30. We had a preductive practice I was still emotional from yesterday though but the past is the past we can't rewrite it only create a better future. Im just suprised Im actually feeling some way about it because we weren't together for that long but it felt like so much longer. But I went Through practice and then went home and talked to Tymmy for the rest of the day.

Thur. Oct. 20 Untitled

Today was one of those days where if you read this you have to name it. Like to much stressful stuff has already taken place in this one week and it's only Thursday. I went through family stuff earlier this week now me and Toni broke up today but that's not the worst part; my godson's father died today so I have to put my jumble of emotions to the side to comfort T'Nea as much as I possibly can but it's hard when she's all the way in Texas and I am here. The only good thing that probally isn't all that good is that Micah is still young so he doesn't feel any type of way about it but now I know I have to work twice as hard to mark sure he has all that he needs. Honestly this is TOOOOOO EFFIN MUCH IN ONE DAY