Nov. 20 NO BETTER

I still feel bad but I went to church. It usually makes me feel better and it did because I felt like death when I woke up now i just feel like half of Death :(.  I dont think I should go to school tomorrow  but I know I should to learn and all that jazz. I keep listening to Rihanna and its kind of creepy that this s ong wont get out my head.But I need to go take a nap or something so BYE!!!!!!!!!!!

Nov. 19 Finally

I finally got the maniquine from Drea to start my designs so they can finally get out of my head. I have to go get some mor fabric but I dont feel like asking my mommy. I was so cold today  I think Im getting worse. I went to work and couldnt wait for Khristen to come in because I was bored and their daughter was there and she getts to close. I dont like when children Im not too fond of get in my personal space and touches my stuff. And she sloppy so I didnt know if she washed her hands or anything so it was kind of gross. When Khristen came in it started getting fun after Hannah left. We played in some wigs and just acted a foo for the rest of the day. I was okay besides the fact I felt TERRIBLE.

Nov. 18 Work

I hate working on Fridays because Khristen not here to make time go by fast and its only me Joe and Hannah here. Hannah always so mad about something that  probally is bot even that serious and Joe wants to have fun but seems like he cant baecause he has to answer to Hannah, I hope my marrage not like that because I wont be married for long then. He look so unhappy but that's not my business. I feel sick today I wish I felt better. But these boring conditions not going to make it any better for me.

Nov. 17 Offerings

So I keep looking out for people but its not the same here all the time but its okay. I saw my fat boy today and took care of him because he is too sick to take care of himself. I guess I can always lend a helping hand because you never know when your going to need help in the same way. I went out my way to buy him medicine and soup. I was getting annoyed because when people get sick they think they cant do anything at all. That is never the case but I didnt complain.But ona beter note I started making scene plans for the "photoshoots" so I should be good next month because Drea is my model and she understands me for the most part. I just hope Pratt sees what I have to offer.

Nov. 16 READY

So over these past couple of days I keep learning more about myself because I have to push myself more. Nobody is physically here that knows what I can do to push me to keep going on strong. So I have to just keep myself focused through everything even though I have a lot to do. I stress my ownself but thats why i  have to do better for me and keep going. I started making a plan on when Im going to start making the stuff. I talked to Drea so she can help over break and we can make alterations and fitting plans. So things getting real corporate like for me. So wish me luck =)

Nov. 15 About to be like Yeezy

So yet again I have another dream killer. People like this need to really tink about their plae before they speak to people like me. My sister did not rear a failure so why do they keep trying to knock me like Im not talented. If you never seen the talent then dont speak because it was not ment for you to see you just sound like a hater. But I must be honest they do just make me more ambitious even if I wanted to fail I couldnt because its not me. Dont let people make you feel like following your dream is going to end in regret. As long as it makes you happy go for it or yopur regret will be that you never even tried to reach for it. No matter what people will try to put you down even if they dont know you but you have to push your self with a few hand behind you to keep pushing even when you want to give up. So with that said I have two new quotes till Im done with this fashion stuff.......

"Now I could let these dream killers kill my self-esteem
Or use my arrogance as the steam to power my dreams
I use it as my gas, so they say that I'm gassed"
Kanye West

"Motivation for me was them telling me what I could not be,
Oh well, Im so ambitious"

Jay-Z

Nov.14 Dreams

Today I had a pretty good day. I got to see my daddy today which is always a joyous occassion. I was able to get some things for my porfolio but its hard to do things like this when people close to you doubt you. Honestly if you dont believe in me and what I want to do then dont speak on it at all. People like that just seem like they want to take your joy and your shine. Just because you are unhappy dont try to kill my dream. My daddy, my siblings, my bestfriend and my niece just know wht to say to get me back focused though, Im still determined to make them proud of me.