Sep 29 Nothing to do but study

No time for games today it was dedicated to studying for the SATs and to studying for my biology test tomorrow. I had very little time to my self to relax because I was trying to keep my mind busy. I studied in the blue SAT book for a while rhen in the all night book and finally my biology notes. I alternanted them all day till I decided my brain needed a brake so I cleaned up for a while then got right back too my studies. Around like 4:45 Toni came over after he came from class and I got some down time till a few hours later when he fell asleep and I started studying again. I really hope this pays off on Saturday.

Sep 28 NO PRACTICE

Today is going to be the best rest of my life because we dont have school tomorrow and I dont have practice today which mean Toni can come over and help me with some work I need to do. I went through all my classes today not feeling any type of stress becauase practice makes me feel like I have to rush through everything when I get home but not today I get to do all of my homework. I had a quiz in Biology today didnt do sso well but it really just shows me that I really need to find a way that fits me to study and actually retain the information that I am studying. The rest of my classes felt real simple today that was such a relief. I walked home with Jordan and Brionna and it was fun I never really get any time to be around people except for school because of practice and work. When I got home I started my homework and cleaned up the house till my mother got home then Toni came over and I finally had time to relax. This is what I have been needing.

Sep. 26 Monday Mornings arent that bad

Today should be a pretty good day, I mean it has too since it starts off my week and because BGC come on tonight. Im proud that I remembered this time because any other time I forget and then tomorrow I would be like darn I forgot again. I had to rush this morning to get myself together but it was okay as long as I am niot late and I have everythong for my day today. I went to class got all my work done and too a few notes for most  of my classes. In APES I had a test i feel like I did goood but when I feel like that I usually didnt because I took it off of things that I already thought I knew and that could be incorrect. We did have practice today and I am actually ready to go to practice. We are mostly just wiorking on the stunts for the upcoming competition but we still need a lot of work before we are completely confident in what we are doing. I am sort of proud in our progress but I kow we can do better. Andre came by to visit me today (my brother) and that made me feel good that hemisses me because he is never really emotional like that. We played around for a while, I can tell my mommy missed him because she was yelling at him as usual. I got some chestnut congtacts today Toni loves them and Andre hates them but it doesnt matter because i like looking like a wolf. =)

Sep. 27 2011 Random Tuesdays

Today started off so lethargic like I was tired but I got dressed and everything quickly. My night before had me in a decent mood to get up and start my week. When I got up and got dressed this morning it was not that much of a inviting Tuesday just very bland. I rushed and got dressed really wishing the weekend was longer but life goes on. When I went down stairs to get into the car to leave for school I saw this cat that looks just like how my hair would when it would color unevenly; this was the first time I ever seen a cat just sleeping in my bushes so it sort of brightened up my day. I thought it was cute how when my mother came outside the cat woke up and looked at her like she was crazy then went back to sleep. My day was how it usually is but I was actually happy to be in school because I know that tomorrow I do not have practice. So as my day proceed I went on to practice and everything went well for a change. We worked on some new stunts for competion and Bria got her flip so we where making big moves today. I hope Friday's practice goes the same way. When I got home I did take a nap which made me slightly late for bible study but I just feel like as long as Im there that's all that should matter right?

Sep 30 2011 GIRLS AND GRADES

Today was a good day for me I was a little confused on my bio test because I couldnt remember the material all too much which really sucks but I know what I need to do now. I have to study on a continuious bases to remember the information rather then try to cram. I hope to God I do beyond my exspectations tomorrow because I really need this. I got to staduy in AVID todayfor my SATs so I hope the help Prosper gave me I remember. I really know that I can do beyond fair its just I hate test. I got my interm today and I did okay I need to keep my grades up to raise my GPA and to show schools I can be all that they want and need. I hope the underclassmen focus why more then what I did because we all are going to have to live with our regrets and life so you better hope they dont invovle your education. There was almost a fight in practice which was wild because people not loyal to the team when they are not even suppose to be in practice with us. But this is just a bump ion the road for the time being. Well Im about to finish studying for the SATs so good night.

Sep. 24 2011 Confusion

So why did I get waken up five in the morning to be asked did I want to get some coffee -_-. I was too mad. You cant wake people up like that then dont want to take no for an answer. Around seven I did get up and go get some coffee with that particular person and they really dont like the fact that I have a boyfriend but I think its so cute. We went to the park with our Starbucks and talked till like 8:30 9o'clock. We still love each other its weird but when I get home Toni not keeping his word and giving me my iPod back before church so he making me rethink stuff because he been acting like a stinker all day. I want my iPod ugh he irratating me, my headphones are lonely. Church today was okay I couldnt focus all to much, way too much on my mind with everything on my mind its way too many people in my life and some of them need to remove themselves from my presents. I still dont understand why people like me I know I can be awesome but I just dont like people too much. Why dont people understand that????? I need my music to think about all this.

Sep. 24 2011 I really hate work

So before work Toni came over because I didnt see him yesterdsy night after the game and I didnt talk to him before I went to sleep. I let him hold my iPod till I go off work so I had to listen to the Koreans all day which is the worst thing ever for me -_-. They can barely understand what anybody Is saying but think they know EVERYTHING. From two to eight I was trying to take my mind off the time so it wiould more faster it was helping until three when it felt like five then at five and I wanted it to be six so I could run and get a shape-up  real quick. All day I was getting compliments on my shoes and my hair of course but I was just getting tired of people staring at me for like ten minutes and not speaking after I just said Hello in my nice voice with a fake smile. And some girl was staring at me all day and I didnt just see her once or twice today either. I was regreting giving Toni my iPod because when nobody in in the store and the radio keeps playing the same thing you start to go crazy. Around six nobody is really in the store but once when seven roll around everybody and they mother wantsto come in and but weave and a wig yall had all day for that, this is rediculous. It never felt like it wouldcome but eight came and I went. When I got home I talked to Charlie and he wanted to go to the boweling alley but plans changed ten minutes later as usual so I called Toni to see where he was and he was on his way back out here to see me. We relaxed for the rest of the night because I was a little tired.