Oct 6 Game Day

For some reason I always get to cheer when the wheather is crazy. Today its super cold and we are cheering at Lansdown. I feel like away game make us closer but sometimes it doesnt matter when we come back to New Town.I honestly didnt really ant to cheer because one it was cold and two I forgot some of the cheers. I could do something about the second one butthe first was out of my control. on the ride to lansdown it felt real nice outside it was when we started to cheer when the problems came. We had make a circle with the Lansdown cheerleades and we where getting along just fine it wasnt until we started cheering when they started hating us. Everytime we go to an away game we come real mutual then we leave they hate us. our cheers where better and we weere louder then them. Even though our cheers are a bit offensive they have to understand this is like a competition so its time to compete. The coach called us trash but I guess it was jealous. The black girl on their team said the only reeason we were loud was because we are black which didnt make any sense at all because she was black too. But over all it was a good game we won and I got to go home and get warm =).

Oct 7 Another day off

No practice today so I thought Iwould ghave time to rest for the rest of my life. I been so tired lately I have to stop stressing about everything. I was suppose to spend my afternoon with Toni but he is never home when I tell him to come home early. He make me feel like he dont care its soooooooooooooooo annoying. so I walked home with Jordan and Bri it was chills felt like I needed to be around some "friends" for once. Me and Bri decidedto go harrass Kendie but only after we dropped our stuff off and went top 7 11. I was tired when we go to Kendie house but I had fun with them they always know how to make me feel bad and happy at the same time.They helped me with my silly boy problems which are not really problems just me having too many choices. I kind of fell asleep on them out of no where but it was because I havent really been sleeping like I should. I get to sleep  tonight. I guess I am not seeing Toni tonight I miss him though.

Oct 5 nice surprise

I love good surprised on a boring day it just makes it way more fun. So today after my late practice I was a little annoyed so I didnt really want to talk to any body. I was really tired so I didnt go to church with my mommy tonight I stayed home and started my homework. Toni called me and I had to kind of calm him down. five minutes later Drea called saying she was coming over to pick some stuff up. I was so happy because I saw my daddy on Monday and now my sister today I felt loved. I did feel a bit of tension when everybody got to my house though because drea is sick and rushing and Toni was just mad so I had to try to appease everyone which was stressful. Toni thinks he still should get all my attention when my family is stopping by but I dont think that its fair to anyone but him. Drea told me that she was going to be performing but she had to network tonight so I just haveto pray everything goes as planned.

Oct. 4 SMH EVEN IN THE CHURCH

Even church people can be a mess andit can really show. How can you clame to be a in tune with God but you are quick tempered and dont know how to act even in the house of the Lord. I cant get into detail about the story but me and my mans Charlie had to remember we where in church. All I can really tell is that class was going on very calm and pleasent as usual until they started relating things back to real ife. Charlie made a couple of points like a lot of you would not honestly act like this if the situation was brought to you in that manner. So pastor decided to make some examples, she asked me since I am going to get married on day if my husband had a problem with me going out on Saturday to evangelize and I know he likes his breakfast ready when he gets up but i forgot to make it how would I go about this. because she already made the point that the breakfast was not made I answered the question like so, "I wouldn't be with someone who has a problem with me doing the Lords work and I would just pick him something up on the way home." All the older women had a problem with it saying I should have made it before I left and asked him could I go. Well in my mind I thought I answered the question and you cant change the senario but I got over all the comments. But Charlie couldnt get over a certain person's mother tried to go on him so I had to calm him down. I was really a mess.

Oct 3 2011 DADDY'S Girl

Today all I could wait for was that text from my daddy because he is suppose to come by and dro[p some stuff off to me. No matter how much time I get to spend with him is something to charish because I love my daddy so much but I never really get to see him for personal reasons. I was suppose to cheer at the volleyball game today but I would never dare to leave him waiting for me especially sice it's freezing outside that would be horrid. So after school I walked home to make sure I was in the appointed place at the appointed time. My mother picked me  up on my cold walk home because it was raining. When my daddy texted me around 5:30 I started to get ready so my mommy could run me by the subway so I could get my stuff. When I saw him I really felt like a little girl again I just wanted to run to him and jump on him but I didnt. i did run to him and gave him a hug to made me remember when I was like eight and I would see him and huig him as tight as my little body could. I literally had a smile from ear to  ear. I'm honestly a daddy's girl. When he gave me my stuff he told me to look inside and he said " You can never say I dont love you." I smiled and waited till I got home to open it. It was a interim from fourth grade. The funny thing is that it reflects me now, I'm goofy but still smart but mostly cant sit for long periods of time and focus on one thing.

Oct 1 2011 SAT

The only thuing that has been on my mind all week was the SATs and I have to take them today. I woke up around 4 in he morning because I thought I was ready. I looked at the clock and said oh no I need to go back to sleep or Im going to do terrible. so I rolled back over and went back to sleep. I woke up again at 6:18 am and was energized in a way but when 6:20 came around the time I planned to wake up I wanted to go back to bed but I got up and got dressed. I prepared everything the night before rather then wait till the morning like I did my first time. I prayed like 40 times this morning and my pastor texted me so it made me a bit more calm. When it was time to test Im going to be honest I was nervous but the essay question made sense so it took a load off. As the test went on everything got a bit simpler but when I did feel myself getting overwhelmed I would stop and pray because I feel like no matter the score I get I can only say thank God that I didnt have a nervous break down and freak out. When the test was over I had to rush home and get ready for work but in between that time Andrea came over to make me smile. Work was simple not too many costumers and I got to get a hair cut so I feel  clean. Tonight Im going to bed early Im tired!!!!!!!

Oct 2 2011 Gray Sundays

For it to be gray and gloomy today is crazy because its Sunday the sun should be out and shining. This is crazy how cold it is too. Last week it was barable but not today Im freezing and I wore a dress to church. By the way my pastor came back yesterday but I got to finally see her today Im so happt I missed her so much. What she preached had me thinking about my life (the little 17 years that I have) and where Im going. Thats a lot to think about I mean because its not aboput what I want because I get myself in trouble but God wouldnt just let you out to fend for yourself because He wont leave you or forsake you. Toooo Thankful   right now. But Im going to take some time to rest and do what I need to do to prepare myself for the week. Remember to keep your head up because thats where you blessing come down from. And relax because not everything is in your control.